I am sorry you are going through this, June. My advice - learn how to be kind to yourself through this now. I am still having moments of being "not enough" with my nineteen-year-old daughter.

Remeber that you are always doing your best, no matter what, and we can't control what our children see and what they miss. But showing up for them in whatever capacity we can is all we need to do. If it's just a cuddle at bedtime and a chat about how the day has been, that is enough. Let it be so.

Hugs to you ❤️