I've gone one way and then the other. I dove into novels for a while and that was a great relief. But I've also found really powerful voices out there and great support, and that has kept me from escaping altogether. I also feel I need to see what is happening for some semblance of hope.

But I also agree, it's hard to swallow down the anger I feel when people outright deny the atrocities of 7th October. It's also so interesting that being a Jew is something so much more under the radar until it matters. I have friends who I have spent a great deal of time with yet the topic has never come up, so they have no idea. Therefore, they are totally clueless (and thoughtless) when they post the kinds of things that can be utterly hurtful for a Jewish Israeli. But whether or not knowing my roots would have made a difference no longer matters to me - their actions say enough.