Wow, thank you for being so honest, Kasey!

Honestly, I think self-awareness is not only owning your crap but owning your treasure too. You need to own the fact that you are a gift to this world and, from what I am understanding, this is what you aren't doing enough of.

My suggestion would be to start journaling the things that you are grateful for, the things that you are proud of yourself for achieving, and the things you would like to do better, every single day. Perhaps some mirror work too - affirmations such as "I am amazing/gifted/talented/loved/beautiful/valued"